When he had been responsible for one person's death, Viktor had sobbed and contemplated suicide. Now he didn't actually know if there was a way for him to commit suicide. Viktor's eyes were iridescent like this but at K's question they filled with tears, the first one breaking free to sprint down Viktor's cheek.

"I don't know."

Without the effect of gravity and nothing else providing any motion, K was only an inch or two away from his feet touching the ground. Viktor raised one of his hands as though he were going to reach out and touch K, but the touch didn't connect, and Viktor's hand hovered between them.

"... I can't do it. I can't dissolve a Familiar bond. I know that I should, that it wouldn't be safe for you to be bound to me. That I have been responsible for so many awful things. That I don't deserve a Familiar bond. But I can't make myself do it."

The silent tears were flowing in earnest now.

"I am sorry that I'm too weak because it means that you will have to."