With so much weighing heavily on K's mind and heart he has trouble shifting gears as easily, though he does gratefully return the kiss, enjoying the feeling of closeness it brings.
Even on a good day focussing on his own pleasure wouldn't be easy for him, with his primary concern being that his limitations will disappoint Viktor and make him feel as though his efforts are wasted on K; he was intended to facilitate others' pleasure, not experience it himself... Everything combined still presents a mental hurdle for him.
"You don't have to," he says softly. "Today has been..." It's difficult to even put it into words. He sighs in lieu of finishing the sentence. "And the last week. The last year, for you. You're allowed to rest. Just let me hold you for a while."
For a moment Viktor looked away, though he kept his hand on K's neck. He was speaking just as softly as K had been.
"For a little while I want to stop thinking about everything that's happened in this past year. I want to focus on something else. Something nice."
Now when Viktor looked back at K there was a level of pleading in his iridescent eyes.
"I know that I don't have to. I want to. It doesn't have to be anything huge, but I would want to explore you just to find out what feels nice. It could be something as simple as just rubbing your back, or running fingers through your hair. It doesn't matter, I just want to feel closer to you."
Though he thinks there may be better ways of distracting Viktor, he doesn't want to give the impression that he doesn't appreciate Viktor wanting to do something nice for him, or doesn't want Viktor touching him, since neither could be further from the truth.
"I've only experienced either as a cat," he says with a slight smile. And he always enjoys it, so there's no reason to think he won't also enjoy it in his android form. He keeps his clothes on for the time being and adjusts his position so he's lying more on his side, giving Viktor better access to do as he wants.
Viktor only took a moment to scoot closer, so he pressed chest to chest with K and he was still speaking very softly.
"I just need to keep touching you. But...but it would be nice if you wanted to touch me too?"
He stayed gentle as he moved the one hand up to run his fingers through K's hair, slowly from the crown of his head down to the nape of his neck. Viktor had to loop his arm under K's to be able to touch his back as well. He was a little slower with that since there was a longer sweep of his hand from just under his shoulders to the small of his back.
"I've only got what would feel nice to a human as a frame of reference. What are your suggestions for what would feel nice to you?"
Initially K remains still, the better to concentrate on the sensations of being touched and how it makes him feel. It's so rare that he lets himself be the center of attention like this that he can't actually recall it happening before now, at least not in his android form. Gradually he arches into Viktor's touch, not so unlike how he does as a cat, clearly enjoying it, and also obliges the request by reaching up to run his fingers through Viktor's hair in turn. One of the only parts of him left unaltered by the hexcore.
"This feels good," he murmurs as he then trails his fingertips along the curve of Viktor's cheek.
There's the unique sensation of expanding awareness as their minds connect on a technological level again, initiated by K. Not with the intention of transferring any data this time, but — just to feel the connection, and take comfort in it. A level of connection not possible among humans.
This, too.
Even if it can't fully distract him from the sense of gnawing dread, it does help take the edge off it. At least Viktor is safe in his arms for the time being.
Actually, Viktor's hair has been affected. On the back of his skull, that's become a mix of metal and magic, his hair now grows out white. But that's only at the bottom, and the rest of his hair is the same brown color it's always been. The sensation of K's fingertips touching his face is surreal since no one has done that before except maybe Jayce. It's more intimate than he thought it would be.
I've never communicated this way before. But if it feels nice for you, then I want to learn.
Letting his hand drift aimlessly, he circled underneath K's shoulder blade onto his bare shoulder. Since he has been altered, he has only touched other people with the tips of his fingers. So when his palm makes contact with K's bare skin, he can feel the current of energy running down K's arm. There is an echo of his own palm touching K's arm on his arm as he does it. Slowly and carefully, his palm follows that feeling of energy until it stops at the edge of K's tank top.
Just as before, the more skin to skin contact they share, the stronger the recursive sensations become; the full press of Viktor's palm is like a rivulet of feeling becoming a river. It draws a soft, encouraging sound from K. At the request, he disentangles himself enough so he can sit up and tug off his shirt, then he's gently touching Viktor's face again as he leans down to kiss him.
Viktor responded to the kiss hungrily, eager for even the smallest part of making K feel nice. As soon as he could, his palm touched K's shoulder and followed it to the area just under K's collarbone.
I can feel your energy. I don't know if it's your inner power system or just the way that your magic spreads throughout your entire body.
It felt like different branching paths coalesced closer to the center of K's chest. From collarbone to clavicles, Viktor's touch remained light but still in contact with K's skin. What had been a ghostly echo was now something that felt so real Viktor would have sworn that the identical touch was slowly tracing across him too. But just the touch of a hand did would not seem to feel as if warm tendrils of energy were connecting the closer that Viktor was getting to the center of K's chest.
The lingering warmth left in the wake of Viktor's touch makes K feel as though, if his body were capable of it, it would be glowing in those places the same as Viktor's could now. The warmth slowly spreads of its own accord as well, and perhaps it is his own innate magic reacting to Viktor's, attracted like a magnetic force toward each other. As far as he knows, his magic stems from his altered blood and so in a practical sense, his magic and physiology could very well be one and the same, intrinsically intertwined.
He's still cupping Viktor's face with one of his hands, stroking his cheek with his thumb. It's helping to anchor K. As is so often the case with Viktor, it would be only too easy to lose himself in the shared sensations. But right now, he prefers to remain more present in the moment, taking in everything that's happening.
I think it's reacting to your magic. You can feel it too?
I don't know if it is reacting; I've never felt this way before.
Since they didn't have to talk with their mouths and neither one needed to breathe, they could continue to kiss with no interruption. Viktor shifted a little bit so the palm of his other hand could also touch K's bare chest. Magnets being attracted to each other made sense because Viktor had the urge to be as close to K as he could, which is why he wrapped one of his legs over K's thigh. His free hand moved to be in the center of K's chest and the echoed feeling was so strong that Viktor made a little half-swallowed sound into the kiss.
With one hand directly above the other, it was like something closed the circuit and just the smallest rill of magic glittered between Viktor's hands and from their up his arms and into his body. Like a stone thrown into a pond, ripples of light emanated from his shoulders down to the rest of his body.
Whatever I just did, please don't stop touching me.
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Even on a good day focussing on his own pleasure wouldn't be easy for him, with his primary concern being that his limitations will disappoint Viktor and make him feel as though his efforts are wasted on K; he was intended to facilitate others' pleasure, not experience it himself... Everything combined still presents a mental hurdle for him.
"You don't have to," he says softly. "Today has been..." It's difficult to even put it into words. He sighs in lieu of finishing the sentence. "And the last week. The last year, for you. You're allowed to rest. Just let me hold you for a while."
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"For a little while I want to stop thinking about everything that's happened in this past year. I want to focus on something else. Something nice."
Now when Viktor looked back at K there was a level of pleading in his iridescent eyes.
"I know that I don't have to. I want to. It doesn't have to be anything huge, but I would want to explore you just to find out what feels nice. It could be something as simple as just rubbing your back, or running fingers through your hair. It doesn't matter, I just want to feel closer to you."
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"I've only experienced either as a cat," he says with a slight smile. And he always enjoys it, so there's no reason to think he won't also enjoy it in his android form. He keeps his clothes on for the time being and adjusts his position so he's lying more on his side, giving Viktor better access to do as he wants.
"Can I do anything for you?"
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"I just need to keep touching you. But...but it would be nice if you wanted to touch me too?"
He stayed gentle as he moved the one hand up to run his fingers through K's hair, slowly from the crown of his head down to the nape of his neck. Viktor had to loop his arm under K's to be able to touch his back as well. He was a little slower with that since there was a longer sweep of his hand from just under his shoulders to the small of his back.
"I've only got what would feel nice to a human as a frame of reference. What are your suggestions for what would feel nice to you?"
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"This feels good," he murmurs as he then trails his fingertips along the curve of Viktor's cheek.
There's the unique sensation of expanding awareness as their minds connect on a technological level again, initiated by K. Not with the intention of transferring any data this time, but — just to feel the connection, and take comfort in it. A level of connection not possible among humans.
This, too.
Even if it can't fully distract him from the sense of gnawing dread, it does help take the edge off it. At least Viktor is safe in his arms for the time being.
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I've never communicated this way before. But if it feels nice for you, then I want to learn.
Letting his hand drift aimlessly, he circled underneath K's shoulder blade onto his bare shoulder. Since he has been altered, he has only touched other people with the tips of his fingers. So when his palm makes contact with K's bare skin, he can feel the current of energy running down K's arm. There is an echo of his own palm touching K's arm on his arm as he does it. Slowly and carefully, his palm follows that feeling of energy until it stops at the edge of K's tank top.
"Could you take your shirt off, please?"
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Just as before, the more skin to skin contact they share, the stronger the recursive sensations become; the full press of Viktor's palm is like a rivulet of feeling becoming a river. It draws a soft, encouraging sound from K. At the request, he disentangles himself enough so he can sit up and tug off his shirt, then he's gently touching Viktor's face again as he leans down to kiss him.
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I can feel your energy. I don't know if it's your inner power system or just the way that your magic spreads throughout your entire body.
It felt like different branching paths coalesced closer to the center of K's chest. From collarbone to clavicles, Viktor's touch remained light but still in contact with K's skin. What had been a ghostly echo was now something that felt so real Viktor would have sworn that the identical touch was slowly tracing across him too. But just the touch of a hand did would not seem to feel as if warm tendrils of energy were connecting the closer that Viktor was getting to the center of K's chest.
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The lingering warmth left in the wake of Viktor's touch makes K feel as though, if his body were capable of it, it would be glowing in those places the same as Viktor's could now. The warmth slowly spreads of its own accord as well, and perhaps it is his own innate magic reacting to Viktor's, attracted like a magnetic force toward each other. As far as he knows, his magic stems from his altered blood and so in a practical sense, his magic and physiology could very well be one and the same, intrinsically intertwined.
He's still cupping Viktor's face with one of his hands, stroking his cheek with his thumb. It's helping to anchor K. As is so often the case with Viktor, it would be only too easy to lose himself in the shared sensations. But right now, he prefers to remain more present in the moment, taking in everything that's happening.
I think it's reacting to your magic. You can feel it too?
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Since they didn't have to talk with their mouths and neither one needed to breathe, they could continue to kiss with no interruption. Viktor shifted a little bit so the palm of his other hand could also touch K's bare chest. Magnets being attracted to each other made sense because Viktor had the urge to be as close to K as he could, which is why he wrapped one of his legs over K's thigh. His free hand moved to be in the center of K's chest and the echoed feeling was so strong that Viktor made a little half-swallowed sound into the kiss.
With one hand directly above the other, it was like something closed the circuit and just the smallest rill of magic glittered between Viktor's hands and from their up his arms and into his body. Like a stone thrown into a pond, ripples of light emanated from his shoulders down to the rest of his body.
Whatever I just did, please don't stop touching me.