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[scienceofthearcane]

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You have reached Viktor. I'm sorry I can't receive your message right now. But if you leave it for me here, I'll return it as soon as I can.

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[defenderoftomorrow]

Yes, of course. But until we figure it out, stopping your suffering is what matters most. Maybe. I don't know if he'll like that. Please let me know what he says if you ask him.

Yes. I really thought this was over.

[ 'This', being Viktor in pain. At risk. That's why Jayce is upset, his partner was hurt, and he's once again not sure what to do about it. ]

[scienceofthearcane]

[ Yeah, you might want to be clear about that Jayce. Because right now Viktor is cursing at Hawke more in his thoughts. Once again he feels like a disappointment thanks to something he can't control. ]

I'm sorry, Jayce. This was why I didn't say anything. I didn't want to cause you to worry.

[defenderoftomorrow]

There's nothing to apologize for, Viktor. No one chooses to be in pain. It is not your fault.

[ It is not Hawke's fault for mentioning it, either, the conversation simply turned that way. ]

You know me, I always worry. Kind of an expert on that, actually.

[scienceofthearcane]

Yes well, allow me to rephrase; I didn't want to cause you to worry about me.

[ Knowing the difference between others worrying about his safety and him being the source of their stress is something that Victor still struggles with. ]

[defenderoftomorrow]

I think that's inevitable, love. but I appreciate the attempt.

That said, I'd rather you tell me when you're not feeling well.

[ If Jayce can't fix what causes the pain, at least he wants to try and help to offer some comfort. ]

[scienceofthearcane]

Actually telling someone that I am in any pain is something that I've never been very good at.

[ Over the years he's been less and less able to hide it from Jayce, but that doesn't stop him from trying. ]

[defenderoftomorrow]

[ Jayce's face softens at that, and now it really is a shame Viktor can see it. ]

It's a difficult thing, I know. No one probably likes to talk about these things. And I know I can get a bit too much of a mother hen sometimes too, I'm sorry for that. Just want you to have a good, happy life.

[ Preferable free of pain, if possible. ]

[scienceofthearcane]

[ Viktor laughs a bit at that ]

Do you think that I'm not having one now? I've dreamed all my life of being able to go do simple things that other people do, like walking.

[ Like dating. ]

[defenderoftomorrow]

Ah...you're right, of course.

[ Dating is very good. ]

Since walking is on the table, what do you say we go a step further and try going dancing?

[scienceofthearcane]

Wait. Do you mean dancing in public?

[ Viktor's kneejerk reaction is to hide, but if Jayce wanted to do it... ]

[defenderoftomorrow]

I just mean dancing. It can be just the two of us, at home.

[ He wants to dance with Viktor, he doesn't need an audience to make his partner uncomfortable. ]

It was nice when we did it at Tony's party, on the balcony.

[scienceofthearcane]

I would rather it just be us. But the time before was nice.

[ You can't see it, but he did smile and blush a bit. ]

[defenderoftomorrow]

Just us then, I like that idea.

[ Pity, he would love to see it. ]